Limitless
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Limitless

On losing the spark, knowing too much, carrying too much, and a line from Van Gogh about the fire we can't always feel.

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The First Critic
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The First Critic

A reflection on grief, film critics, and finding meaning inside the fractured world of the new Supergirl movie.

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Seasonal Changes
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Seasonal Changes

A piece of music from an old film carries me back to a marriage that didn't last, and to making peace with the way every season turns.

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A Boy At My Table
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A Boy At My Table

A boy no older than eight sat down across from me while I was writing, and handed me a whole meditation on innocence, time, and how small an island really is.

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The Pro and the Fourth Session
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The Pro and the Fourth Session

I usually hire professional models, and I'll tell you why. But the pictures I hold onto came from a fourth session with someone who wasn't a pro at all.

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Grace
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Grace

For as long as I can remember, my mother and I have clashed. Then I sat beside her in her grief, and something in me finally set the old weapons down.

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Untitled
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Untitled

Thirty thousand feet over the Pacific, heading back to the island that holds my father, not ready, still turning it all over.

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Starting Out
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Starting Out

At 59, everything feels like beginning again. On new starts, and the one thing that's been mine since my father handed me a Canon FTb in 1979.

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One Ticket
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One Ticket

On a bus climbing toward Baguio, I couldn't shake a question: what if one ticket could carry you the whole way, no seams? A daydream about how travel could actually work.

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Recon First
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Recon First

Thirty-six years after my last concert, I went to see No Doubt at the Sphere, and the anxiety hit before I'd even said yes. On facing fear for the one you love.

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Life Moves Pretty Fast
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Life Moves Pretty Fast

piece of music stopped me at my desk, and a line from a 1986 movie I've carried since I was nineteen. On tinnitus, grief, and the breaks that actually matter.

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